passion

Short little entry- reading Think Big and Kick Ass. Im up to Chapter Two which is all about passion for your work.

It says you have to love what you do. 
This is what i have gathered from the chapter so far:

•  You have to be passionate about what you do
• Donald Trump loves to make deals. That is his work and it is also what he is passionate about. He is so passionate he only sleeps 3-4 hours a day. He loves making deals more than sex.
• He wants to make tons of money.
• Money is a measure of how well you are doing. So its like a scoreboard. The funnest part shouldn't be in scoring, but finding a creative way to score. (i wonder if basketballers and soccerplayers think this way, just trying to score creatively, but ignoring the aim of the game at the same time-which is scoring)
•  Hence, Donald Trump is wants to make a lotta money just so he can show people how successful he is , not because he is greedy and just likes money, contrary to popular belief. Well i think its popular anyway.
• Think about what you are passionate about, what makes u satisfied, what makes you happy, how you can benefit society THEN be realistic again and start thinking about your unique talents.
• BE PERSISTENT. HARD WORK PAYS OFF.

It makes sense doesnt it.

However, Donald Trump sounds really up himself in the book. It makes it hard for me to believe what he says is correct.

SO relating all this back to me, I started to think about what i was passionate about.
I wanted people to be entertained, and be happy. I really did like to perform. However, i was scared that i wasnt driven enough. My art teacher Ms Cunningham says i have a great capactiy to empathise ( apparently she can see this through my work) and it would be nuts for me to consider any other career but art. I thought about what she said, and i was driven to do it....for a little while. After i went to work experience, i was discouraged from taking art as a career. I dont think i can lock myself in a room and paint for hours. I suppose art was more like a special interest...or hobby. I like to analyse it and wonder what the artist is trying to say. I find it hard for myself to convey a message through my artwork.

On the other hand, I could rehearse a play for ages, learn lines for hours and i love to perform. I was scared that i wasnt talented enough, not as good as i am in art. But then again, i had training outside of school for art for ages and the only reason i had considered doing it in the first place was because my parents preferred art over drama and there were more job available for that field(apparently).

So then i remembered another bit from the book about steve jobs who was the cofounder of Apple and Pixar(I LOVE PIXAR). He was not the most talented computer dude but he was certainly the most passionate. Maybe, just maybe, i could be like Steve Jobs. But what if im not passionate enough. What if i give up halfway?

 I should just stop being scared. I have to, quote the book, ' discard all my discomfort '  and just do it.

hmmm.


stop thinking carmen.


dont be a dreamer, be a doer. 

focus.