Full speed ahead.

why am i writing this blog. my head hurts. i slept like 3 hours, i get up and i stilll feel like a fucking dead fish. and my head feels like its going to fall off. maybe i need to go back to sleep.


i just had a 3 second nap.


while typing this blog.

damn that period. came back and slapped me in the face. byotch.

i need to watch so many movies this weekend, my BIG ROCKS, i need to throw myself into my work.
And at my sisters lap top. so i can watch thi movies


i had a really bad dream just then.
I was walking with my group and steven(why is steven in it....????) and my sister towards my house at night. some police cars were behind us, but notchasing us. i turned a corner and we saw a little truck. A tall African man ( i am NOT racist, by ANY means) started running towards us. some how my sister and i got separated into the group but we stupidly walked towards him. him grabbed my sister and i tried to run after him. i didnt even try to grab her off him! OMYGOD! he wasnt even running. he just grabbed her held onto her and walked away. but i was too scared and frozen in my dream. i just started crying.

in the second part of my dream(yes, in the same three hour nap i had) i was living with jenny my sister and my dog. we lived in a ....house.....together. i hesitate on the word house because it didnt look like a house. welll it was but it was like, a house structure put on top of a tree....like a tree house, except the house is the size of a tree, and instead of it balancing on a branch, it....the tree sorta wears the house over its branches and stuff. also, did i mention these trees are floating? well theyre floating. anyway, we lived just fine and one day, i opened the gate to my house, to my front yard. Sally, my dog  came bounding out onto the thick tree roots.under the roots, there is no land or soil. so if you slip, you fall off. my dog got curious and started sniffing around the roots, i thought, well she has small paws so nothing should happen. WRONG. she put one poor forward, missed her footing and she fell off the tree and skidded down this hill, which was also floating in the middle of nowhere and proceeded to fall off. i was in absolute shock. i couldnt have lpossibly grabbed her, because i was sitting on the roots and that would mean if i had grabbed her, i would fall off. jenny was standin g nearby, but not near enough to do anything. i had to watch my dog die.

i had to watch my dog die.


i had to watch my dog die

i was terrified.

i looked over at jenny and she said...



oops.

at least she was old.

yeah, reading that now, it sounds funny. like im telling a funny story. but im not. because that was the most scary thing i have dreamt in a long while. not sad. but really scary.